He>I

He>I

Hey friends. This week has been a crazy one hasn’t it? I know it has been for me, and I’m sure it’s been an emotional roller-coaster for some of you too. It boggles my mind how much can happen in the short span of 7 days, but oh man can those 7 days really change the next.

Today I just want to chat with y’all about a concept I’ve been thinking about, one that came across me the other day that has given me so much assurance and gained trust in the Lord. And yes I will admit, I don’t always completely trust in God. He constantly has to remind me that He’s trustworthy, but don’t worry- I’m working on it.

Anyways, this concept that I’m talking about is the fact that God is perfect. His ways, His thoughts, His, actions, His PLANS- they are all utterly and amazingly perfect.

Y’all are probably thinking “Duh Kassie, of COURSE God is perfect. He is God after all.” And yeah that’s true, but really think about that for a moment. I let this idea wrap around my pea-sized head and I could barely fathom it.

A PERFECT God loves me and He loves you, and He wants to bless us with the very best a life with Him has to offer. He wants nothing less for us. This means that we have to realize that what we want isn’t always the best.

And boy did the Lord teach me that.

As most of you know, I volunteer with an organization called “Mount Nebo” in which me and many other Jesus-lovin’ people go hang out with kids living in under-resourced communities and tell them about the gospel. I’ve been in this org since last August, and I’ve learned so much through it. However, there was something I was disappointed about this past semester as I kept seeing these kids every week.

No matter how hard I tried, I could not connect with a child. It was such a challenge and I didn’t understand why. After a while I assumed I simply wasn’t meant for the job, and talking with children wasn’t something I was actually called to do. Little did I know that God had something in store.

Mount Nebo recently got the opportunity to reach out to a new community. Looking for volunteers, I decided to join in and help. I knew that the kids at my current community were so loved by other volunteers, and the children in this new community needed to know that they are loved too. So I went to visit the new kiddos this past Thursday and oh man y’all,

the Lord. is. SO. DANG. GOOD.

As soon as I saw their sweet faces, I knew that I was where I needed to be; it was no mistake. I left that community filled with joy, the type of happiness that only comes from God Himself. Not only was I joyful, but kind of shocked too. Now remember, I thought I couldn’t connect with kids. Coming into this community I thought I had a zero chance of having meaningful conversations with a child, but thankfully I was so so wrong.

Y’all, not only is God perfect, but He is bigger and better than we are. Our thoughts, ideas, expectations, assumptions, are so much smaller than what He has planned.

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. – Isaiah 55:8-9

Don’t be discouraged by this truth, instead rejoice! Isn’t it neat that we don’t have to have everything figured out? As long as we trust in the Lord, He does the rest! And He does it gladly and magnificently!

I don’t know about you guys, but that truth gave me so much peace. I was so upset last semester because I trusted in my own assumptions about myself instead of my identity in Christ. Not only that, but I didn’t take into consideration that my thoughts are so limited. I didn’t know why I couldn’t connect with the children in the first community, I just knew that it wasn’t happening, but I felt like I had to know the answer. In reality, all I really needed was to trust God that He saw me and my situation, and that He was doing something about it. And lo and behold my Lord made my situation good, better than I could have ever imagined.

Readers, if you’re going through something right now that you flat out don’t understand, let God know. Tell Him how frustrated you are and how confusing everything is, and once you do that, give Him the situation; I promise He will make something beautiful out of it. I am so grateful that our God isn’t a god who succumbs to our wants, but provides in abundance our needs. If it weren’t for that, would joy be a thing? I don’t think so.

Much love,

Kassie

 

He must become greater; I must become less. – John 3:30

 

 

From the mud to My Rock

From the mud to My Rock

So I have this journal.

This journal, you see, has become very near and dear to my heart. It holds all kinds of things like quiet time entries, entries about my day, particular memories, and some days I’ll just write away all of the feels that I’m feeling.

Sometimes my entries give me ideas to write about on my blog, so tonight I was skimming through my journal searching for content when I suddenly noticed a particular pattern in  my journal.

Y’all, my emotions are SO INCONSISTENT. It’s bizarre. I am literally lol’ing at myself just thinking about it. One day I’m praising Jesus, thanking Him for how cool He is and how much I trust Him, and then the next day my journal is tear-stained and full of words contradictory to what was said prior. I couldn’t help but think, “What is going on here?!”

I think Paul explains it best in Romans 7:14-17,

“So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don’t really understand myself, for what I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. So I am not the doing wrong; it is the sin living in me that does it.”

This is me right now. This is the season I’m living in. It’s weird, confusing, painful, and a billion other things. I can’t tell you how many times this Christmas break where I’ve wanted to do something the Lord has called me to do and I haven’t. I say “I trust you Lord,” but my actions don’t follow up afterwards. I’ve been so frustrated with myself because of my inconsistency, and I’m sure you’ve been here- we all have. We are humans, sinners, wanting to please our flesh and desert our spirit.

It’s comforting though to know that even someone like Paul, a man who was such a huge advocate of the Kingdom, struggled with the inconsistency and confusion of his own thoughts and actions. But you know what’s even more comforting?

That we have a God who IS consistent and stable. We even get the honor to call Him our rock!

Be to me a rock of habitation to which I may continually come; You have given commandment to save me, for You are my rock and my fortress. – Psalm 71:3

We’ve got to hold onto that truth, friends. He can be our stable, never moving, never changing, rock.

BUT WE’VE GOT TO LET HIM BE THAT FOR US.

Just like Paul said in Romans 7, the law is not what is wrong- it is us. I know that’s harsh, but hear me out for a second.

God has been pursuing us since the beginning of time. That’s why Jesus came, because God wanted His people to know their creator and how much He loves them! Jesus, the sinless human, died for us so God could make Himself fully available to us, humans of many faults,  whenever we need Him. So we need to ask ourselves,

What is keep us from living on mud and mire to living on THE firm and solid rock?

I’m still trying to figure that out for myself, honestly. I’ve noticed there’s a disconnect between my head, my heart, and my spirit. My head knows God’s promises and the truth that they hold, but my heart doesn’t at all. It’s been a challenge finding what’s causing that disconnect, but I’m trying to figure it out. Just like any relationship, I’m working hard to make my relationship with the Lord better, and we all know that things like that can take time.

So what is it for you? Is there something that’s keeping you from confidently standing on the Rock? Now I want to remind you, it’s okay that your emotions are unstable. It’s okay that you’re confused and you have no idea what’s going on right now. You’re human- it happens. What’s not okay though, is to sit in your emotions and confusion, to sit in your mud and mire. No, you are called to so much more friend. That is one thing I know for sure.

So let’s get through this season together. I know we can do it, along with the help of our sweet friend Jesus.

 

And thanks for reading and spending time with me. 🙂 I will chat with y’all soon!

Much love,

Kassie

 

November/December Favorites

Hi y’all! I decided that I wanted to start doing monthly favorites videos instead of blog posts. I hope y’all enjoy the video, and make sure to let me know what your favorites have been lately! xoxo, Kassie

p.s. Sorry about the weird audio mishap in the beginning. Don’t know what happened there!
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My Year

My Year

Hello friends! After a month of not writing, I am finally back, and it feels good to be back. I hope that y’all had a Merry Christmas and a happy new year!

To kick off 2017, I want to start a tradition on my blog to write about each passing year. You see, in my 19 years of living I have learned that it’s so easy to pass by and forget moments that got you to where you are in the present. You look at where you’re at now and you think, “Wow, how did I end up getting here?” And it stinks, because those moments are moments where we can thank God for what he’s done, whether it be big or small, and we can see how his faithfulness brought us to the present. I don’t want to miss out on glorifying my king. I want to tell the whole world what he’s done in my life.

So here it goes.

2016 for me was.. a lot, if I’m going to be honest. There was a ton of pain, stress, and fear, but there was even more joy, peace, and celebration. It was the year where everything changed because I finally let Jesus live in me. He wasn’t just a visitor that I invited in for a cup of tea every once in a while. No. I asked him to move into my heart.

Because of that radical invitation, Jesus completely came into my life and swept me off my feet. The first major sign of his newfound presence was when he called me to create this blog. Y’all have no idea how baffled I was. God wanted little ol’ me to create something on the internet for everyone to see. What? There’s no way I could do it!

But I did, with His help. After weeks of trying to figure out how this whole shebang works, I uploaded my first blog post. Then the next one, and the next one. Next thing you know there are people calling and messaging me telling me how touched they are by my posts, or how they enjoy my makeup videos. That’s when I knew that the Lord was in the middle of all this. And I just want to say thank you to all of the people who have responded in any way to my blog. It means the world to me, and you should know that what I’m doing would be nothing without my Jesus. I couldn’t have done this without Him.

Another huge milestone for me this year was finishing high school and going off to college. God has done such amazing things through my education. Not only am I attending my top choice school, but he readily prepared me for my 4 (maybe 8) year journey by blessing me with an amazing roommate and awesome friends. I was so excited to enter college with a fresh start and make new friends, but little did I know that God would fulfill my heart’s desires before I even started my first day of classes! Wowza. He just blows my mind.

While being at UT, so many blessings and miracles have come my way that I can’t even count them. But, there are some that I would love to highlight and touch on.

First would definitely have to be starting a bible study in my residence hall. I’ve never mentioned it on my blog, but at the very start of my fall semester God called me to start a bible study. Again, I was baffled and I didn’t know how the heck I was going to pull it off. I had never EVER attended a bible study, let alone led one, but boy oh boy did the Lord step in.

On my very first day of classes I stepped into an elevator to then meet one of my future friends, Christian. He pointed at my shoes that say “Jesus Rocks,” said they were cool, and it all snowballed from there. I got to meet his friend Carolyn who also felt called to start a bible study within the residence hall, and BOOM! We made it happen. Now some may say that it wasn’t a very successful bible study. We had a few people show up here and there, sometimes it was just the main squad, but ultimately it didn’t really matter. I think the bible study has been super successful, and one of my favorite parts of college yet! Getting together with friends to just talk about life and learn more about Jesus has been one of the biggest blessings, and I couldn’t be more grateful that God once again called little ol’ me to get out of my comfort zone.

Another big part of my experience at UT was how I spent my Thursday nights. For 2 hours every week I got to hang out with some really cool kids who live in under-resourced communities through a non-profit called “Mount Nebo”. These kid’s living situations are more than likely way tougher than mine, and I am so grateful that I got the privilege to love on them and share the gospel with them. It has opened my eyes to my own resources and how incredibly blessed I am. Not only have I gained a thankful heart, but the desire for helping children has flooded inside of me. I look at them and I can’t help but smile, and when they’re in pain I’m in pain; it’s been the craziest feeling.

I’ve also recently been given the opportunity to be a part of the marketing team for Mount Nebo, which I am super excited for! The Lord has been ever so present in this journey, and I’m so excited where He going to take me within this ministry.

Now like I said in the beginning of this post, 2016 did have some very rough patches- in fact, it was probably one of the most difficult years of my life. I battled with illness, illnesses in the family, deaths in the family, anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, loneliness, and a ton of other things, and I tell you all these things because I want you to know that I still believe that God is good.

I am able to sit here and write because the Lord was faithful in every. single. situation. There was not a time that I called out for Him where He did not show up. That doesn’t mean that my experiences were painless- no, not in the slightest, but my devoted Father would come in every time and give me peace when I cried out. Sometimes I wonder where I would be right now if it wasn’t for God; I don’t think it would be a very good place.

I am excited for 2017. The word “hope” has been stuck in my head the past few days and I think it’s a reminder for me to keep my eyes on the Lord, because the mountains that I faced in 2016 that are still in my way will one day be totally obliterated. I have hope in that for me, and I have hope in that for you too. Oh dear reader, I hope you know how much you are loved by our Father. He cares for you so much, and He wants you to experience his sweet love. I encourage you to let Him in, and let Him in all the way. I did in 2016, and I honestly wish I would have given it all to God sooner.

But now all that we have is what is ahead. So take heart and keep your eyes on him, for he has overcome the world.

Much love,

Kassie